I’m learning every day that life moves faster that I realize and that time is growing shorter.
I’m sure every parent goes through this. For me yesterday was a waking up moment. Yesterday I was shaken by the fact that my daughters were growing up far quicker than I am ready for.
Most of my life has been spent on a plan and trajectory. Graduating high school I could tell you where I thought I should be today. I was the master of my time and in complete control of my life. As I grew up I lived in my plan fulfilling every step I knew I must take. My life was always lived for what next.
Last night I couldn’t go to sleep. I couldn’t sleep because for the first time in my life I didn’t want to go forward, but instead I wanted to go back. The first years of my children are behind me and they are years that I will never get to live again.
I know, I know, this is not a typical post, but I think God is working on my heart here. I think He is helping me realize how precious the present is. I think God is showing me that my life is not lived five steps down the road, but instead here at this very place.
As I laid in bed struggling with time as it moves forward I was reminded of Jesus words, “But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.”
I need to stop living 6 steps ahead of myself and start living for God investing in my family now. Just as I cannot nor should not live my life for tomorrow, I cannot get today back. It’s gone.
Every day, every moment counts. It’s time to start living.